I am repeating 2019 – 2027 for over 3 times now

So I have been seeing beings since I was 4 years old. At the time I was just acting it out like a child but then I was 14 and It happened.

I was a my grandparents, I woke up in the attic where the guest bedroom is and I heard in my head: Everyone is going to the better world now. I couldn't think react and certainly not process what was going on so this is all in hindsight. Voices started talking in my head and possessing my body. The voices as I call them decided to show my what was going on. This was in Stadpolders, Dordrecht, the netherlands. in 2003, I was a 14 year-old boy. It was like 8-9am. The voices dressed me up and walked straight out the door leaving open (in hindsight why not show me no one is home?) We walked from my grandparents house to the station and blokker. I saw nothing, no birds, no people, no cats or insects. Sure I couldn't process it but that I was sure off. Then they took me to the blokker with the intent of breaking in. (apparently this is a fav pass time when the world ends. looting) Of course it failed because I was just a kid. Then they went back to the house and talked with each other about the fact that I am too young. For what? Looting maybe, but I'm pretty sure they meant to be alone in the world.

So I went back to the house. The door was still wide op. I looked into the glass window of the living room door and no one was home. The voices took me back up the attic and put me to bed. Without shoes but clothes and socks on (this bothers me till this day). The voices told me that everything is going to be alright. That they'll sent me to world to grow up in, worlds with families. Worlds different from mine (A damn lie that one) and as I drifted asleep I felt my mind leaving me body.

Cut to 2003 again. I wake up I am totally normal. and I sleep in my underwear thankfully. My memory is hazy on what happened between like 2003 and 2004. I know school sucked but otherwise it was normal.

Then the voices came back and back again. in 2019 I thought this was psychosis. They were just talking nonsense about stuff that isn't even important to mention here. But it were surreal topics that in 2005 seemed to be a summer haze to me. Several times the voices came back in the form of psychosis (being distracted by my mind), voices talking through me and literal world jumps.

The psychosis as I call it was just from 2005 through 2009, Basically silly little stories about the world of the voices I need to hear

The voices talking through me were talking about contact and the need to address my state at hand. This only happened like 3 times through the same period as the psychosis. Basically their whole deal was ''We're the same, we should communicate''

And the last one which lasted the longest were periods where I was mentally shot into the future and into other realities (boringly enough identical to this one)

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Now that we covered this, I can go on about the time and space hi-jinks I spent the last 3 or so decades experiencing. First, Its on my birthday. I started to lose free will and started to communicate to the voices. This evolved into walking in circles and them maniacally mumbling like a furby in evil mode. I had no control over my body. This was when my grandpa passed away the first time in October of 2019. I was taken in by the GGZ. Then things stabilized. and the voices started to take this as a task rather than just doing weird stuff. 6 years pass and I get better, I emotionally matured and changed my interests and even gender (bigender). I learned from the experiences I got and now can finally see the big picture. (well more than previously)

This may sound messy but I want to present the 2019-2026 as its own separate line. Because it happened 3 TIMES!!! Then during 2018 I had traveled to the future at several points in time. I had even sent myself back for a year and that felt confusing and scary. Then in 2019 I did the same and lastly 2023. I have seen this future for so many times already I am honestly bored by it now. This is the third time I a writing this. The only saving grace is that I am witnessing this from different perspectives. So this me from the present writing this knows more than the me who did this the second time. The past me from the second time lived all the way through 2026 to 2027. Despite saying this I have no idea what the future actually holds because my mind doesn't process the actual memories from last time as if I held onto them. So the closest thing is a Deja vu. But actually knowing what I already lived through.

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As for the why. I can finally type it down. Apparently in my OG world everyone needed to leave for a better one. Its literally called the better world and I was promised by the voices that it sounded less dumb in the language spoken there. The voices are people I should be knowing later, People I had bonds with. I could called it possessed but it was truthfully symbiosis. We as people in different dimensions were connected through some manner. And I couldn't just leave with them attached. And I wasn't just attached to them but also to the world they'd be leaving for. I was not welcome there. So all these space and time things with the walking in circles was for them to release me of those bonds and futures so I can end up in the right place and the right time. When I became lucid enough to ask questions they were as cryptic and bullshitty as you'd think but I logically bullshitted my way into this big picture.

I had bonds to get rid off. Now I am done, I hope.

This is the last time I live in 2026, I hope.

Time and space is all happening at the same time in one second.

This world is a simulation.

Beings are coming here to empty this world like they did with so many others.

The Yusuf Shakur thing is how its going to go. I witnessed it myself several times.

I was in many other worlds near damn Identical to this one that have all been emptied by now.

These beings I call the voices are like Bashar, if you know the guy. Look him up on yt.

Channeling these guys is easy compared to that guy doing his growely speech impediment thing.

Yes, I am 36 right now but technically still age 14.

Hopefully I get to go with you guys, But I'm probably get left out again. In which case I am planning on looting Pokemon Booster boxes and eating spare ribs till I get taken again.